When you
crash and burn at your first attempt working a project that cost every muscle
in your body to put together, same one everybody around you felt different
about, you feel the white-hot glares of scorn peel through layers of your skin
like sun rays through a hundred lenses incinerating an entire colony of black
ants. The only difference is this beam is sucking on your faith, seeping out
your very life-force. Do you marvel how fear of failure cripples the desire to venture
out into strange waters? It makes us long for support from our peers. In any case, there isn't a single thread of fault with folks sharing their
dreams and aspirations with other people. The principle thing is not to leave
the door too wide open so a desire for companionship morphs into a ruthless dependency;
a belief we are nothing without someone else's opinion.
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| Courtesy: Naja Niketa |
The
quest to achieve is an inseparable element of every man’s psyche;
a burden to increase and multiply. To excel in a chosen field, an area of
interest. And thus, fear on any level should be kept on a tight leash. I have
come to terms with my weaknesses. Not compromise. I have studied and garnered
ample info from my shortcomings, and I understand the limits of my abilities
and strengths. I cannot deny the fact that I’m inclined to make
mistakes or that the best of my pains might fall through like a castle erected
on sand. Nevertheless, my calling raises me up high above all limitations and
plants my feet on a pedestal of sweet possibilities. And I am persuaded to
declare this privileged position in which I have found myself fortifies the essence
of my zeal. Faith can stand, walk, run and fly incontestable even when evidence
indicates the contrary.
I stay
my course trailing my own path. Besides, shaping a life is an individual
responsibility. Dexterity in the mental realm and otherwise, cannot be taken
out of the equation. We are heroes of what we pursue and conquer but not before we conquer nor even before we lay
pursuit. Until we tread less traveled paths, experience can only be measured by
a stretch of imagination like a paradise possessed from a distance. The haunting
knowingness that I might walk away from the life I was programmed to multiply
agitates my creativity. I sense a threat to my very existence every time I am
reminded I am surrounded by opposition.
“All men
are prepared to accomplish the incredible if their ideals are threatened.”—Maya Angelou.
And that’s why I
keep a simple creed but fire it up to get me through the heat.
Keep
your pens bleeding!
Akpan
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