A soulja battling Boko Haram who is also fighting his personal demons writes his daughter about his personal struggles. |
Dear Daughter,
This is not Father.
Tell you what; this war's
been one tough nut to crack;
If we fight the enemy we
shall hit our brothers.
There's no telling who got
dragged into this joint;
Or who got paid to settle for
a human bomb.
I've had nightmares where I
woke up totally drenched;
Victory has never before tethered
on a more slippery edge.
Who willingly yields up a
daughter?
Then turns around and cries,
Murder! Murder!
Who can spot the color of
truth, color of a lie?
Who discerns a foe just by
looking 'em in the eye?
Sometimes, I feel this is a
struggle in vain.
I assume it sounds lame and
probably is insane.
But can I be positive I ain't
sticking out my neck for a traitor?
Can I state with certainty
there ain’t secret mass burial sites?
They wear our faces and speak
our tongue.
They sniff out the nitty-gritty
of our minds.
If I sound a bit off the wall
maybe I am.
But when we get down to brass
tacks it’s Nigerians offing Nigerians.
Things are never what they
seem behind enemy lines,
In this place I wage war and
for same I lay down my life.
Dear Daughter,
This is Father.
Akpan